Ugh. Of course I have a few shit days right after I write a SUPER positive post. Oh, life. Why you gotta be so tricky? I have been feeling really low energy, a bit depressed, and just blah yesterday and today. Then a letter comes in the mail with news that feels like a blast from my past. I am still dealing with consequences of living irresponsibly for a few years, and it sucks to face it when I thought it was OVER. I am trying to deal with it. I cried a few tears, vented to my husband, and am attempting to LET GO. There is nothing I can do about it until tomorrow anyway, and it really is kind of a misunderstanding. Sorry to be vague, but the details are super boring. Anyway, it made me feel the same way I USED to feel so often: Bad About Myself. I haven’t felt that way for awhile so it was a bit shocking.
So, I found one of my favorite quotes and thought I would share it with you all. I actually have a necklace with this saying engraved on it…I never realized how fitting it would be to my future sober self. If this is the lowest part of my day, then it really isn’t all that bad. I have a lot to be grateful for. I will say a prayer and remind myself of that.
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Oh, I know this feeling: it seems that always after I write an upbeat post, my mood crashes and I’m thinking about drinking again! LOVE that quote, though; I will keep it in mind. 🙂
🙂 Luckily the thoughts of drinking were pretty abstract rather than specific. I definitely WANTED to drink, but was not going to do it, so I just went to bed. xx
Exactly! But, they always seem to come right after you write an inspiring post, right? I sometimes feel like a hypocrite, writing one thing and thinking another, but…at least I was thinking it in the moment.
Right?! It’s the moment that counts… 🙂
I love that quote- what a great mantra to remember at the low points.
Big hugs to you x
Aw, thanks. Everything I was worried about is resolved so I am feeling a bit better today. xxx
So glad to hear it 🙂
It happens…highs, lows, and in betweens. I’ve found that this is just life and it’s my turn to learn how to deal with it like the normies do.
Glad everything is resolved.
Sherry
Thank you! I might have overreacted a BIT more than normies, but I am learning. Ha! Funny now that it’s over… 🙂
Just like the bumper sticker, Shit Happens. It’s just easier to see that sober. This too shall pass.
Ha! Right on! Thanks Sharon. 🙂
Love this fighting talk in your response to the comment above: “I definitely WANTED to drink, but was not going to do it, so I just went to bed.” Yay for you. Like everyone says,.. ups and downs and ups and downs.. they happen .. who knew? Not me when I was drinking that’s for sure. Now my life is WAY more up and down than it ever used to be. Most of all I keep having this wet stuff fall out of my eyes.. that didn’t used to happen much.. but it sure does now! And you know what.. it’s ok. Sending lovely strong thoughts your way from down under in New Zealand xxx
Thanks Mrs D. Big hugs! 🙂
Agh, I hate that- when you’re feeling all unicorns and then life leaves marbles in the road. Isn’t it nice to feel that down feeling and know how to make it better? To know that it won’t last? Yes. 🙂 Sometimes when I’m feeling down on me I can’t help but laugh at myself, a little, in a nice way. In the “Oh, honey, you think this is bad?” kind of way. And then I tell myself “It’s OK, I’m OK.” and then I get better after a bit or a while when the tides turn. I love this quote. xoxoxo
Thanks, Amy! I feel better able to deal with stuff but still quite unprepared for it at times…for those “low” times. It is such a relief to know that I will feel better eventually if I just hang on. And that the lowest moment…maybe the moment I REALLY want a drink…is the worst of it. 🙂
Jen I’m right with ya. Pink clouds to wolfie breathing down my neck in less than 3 days. Glad that it is resolved and I love that quote too and shall be writing it down to ponder in dark moments x
Hi Lucy! It comes and goes, right? Hoping that you are back to pink clouds in no time. xx 🙂