I am getting better at taking care of myself.
My baby steps are paying off in small but good ways. I am treating myself better than I have… maybe ever? It is shocking to me that I treated myself so shitty now that I have a bit of clarity through sobriety. I didn’t think I was at the time, but I was.
I was doing the best I could then. Luckily, I know better now.
I am only doing simple things to take care of myself, but when repeated daily they have the power to make me feel pretty damn good. Eating healthy and delicious food, getting exercise, looking nice everyday instead of wearing yoga pants, praying, writing, taking some time to myself, etc. …
It all adds up. Self-care is greater than the sum of its parts.
I never knew!
But… I know now, right?
I am trying not to worry about doing it perfectly, either. It is okay to miss a day of exercise, for example, if that is what I need to do to take care of myself. It is NOT okay, however, to make excuses all the time because I am being lazy. Balance, balance, balance. What a nice word. I thought my word of 2014 was surrender, but maybe it is really balance. Maybe it is BOTH.
I am not allowed to talk in a mean way to myself, either. That is not allowed in my new balance-y life.
I just shut those negative thoughts right out of my head, and DO something instead.
Baby steps, baby. Just keep taking them.